04: Take A Leap Of Faith

This pandemic changed a lot. It's a disruption to a lot of things. Economic activities stagnate. The virus spread all through-out the world. Governments are forced to impose lockdowns to stop the spreading. We find ourselves locked up in our homes - our dreams are put in a halt, while for others, their dreams collapsed as they are impacted by the effects of the shutdown.

I am filled with hope when 2020 came. I am excited about what the year has to offer, but ever since January came, one catastrophe happened after another. Until the uncertainty of February happened, then March when the lockdown took effect. 

I have to reconsider my goals because it's no longer about achieving them but more of surviving and being healthy.

The months have changed the way many lived.

The pandemic and the death that surrounded us made me think about my life in general. Cliche as it may sound but life is truly a fragile one. I cannot take it for granted but I cannot be so careful that I will miss the opportunities that are meant for me. 

I have had a good conversation with a tarot reader last Friday. I've decided to consult her because I've never done such a thing. The things she said about my past and current are 100% right, the future she mentioned is, of course, something I have yet to see. She gave me a few advice according to the cards, she mentioned:

• Take a leap of faith
• Be willing to accept gifts from God

It's good advice and I think truly meant for me. I feel that I am not asking enough from God or the Universe when He/it is generous. I've always thought that I am not special, and thus, I don't deserve good things. I think my frame of thinking has to change.

Second, all my life I've been careful. I've calculated all of my moves - making sure that everything is within my control. With this pandemic, life is so short, it's time to embrace what life has to offer. I have to take more adventure (but, of course, responsibly). 

I am still filled with hope for 2021 and for the next few years that will come. It has empowered me greatly to trust God/Universe that everything happens for a reason, and I just need to take a leap of faith.